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You are awesome and wonderful and so am I.

Not alone.” My name, Allison, means "truthful," and I just for the life of me cannot live without being truthful about this. Say, “Look, _, here’s someone going through what you’re going through. I want you to share this with someone and

I SHARE THIS NOT FOR ATTENTION BUT TO PROMOTE COMMUNITY. I’m not blaming anything on anything, but circumstances have changed,Īnd this is the place where I find myself. Lot has changed about how my body metabolizes everything, which includesĪlcohol. With which I feel those feelings about it. Just chosen a bad way of dealing with the stress in my life and the intensity Me to figure out how best to represent that. God made me this way, someone who feels life intensely, and it’s up to Maybe not?) an addiction to food and now I’m working on this. Many of you know that I have bipolar disorder and my brain is just wired a certain way. I am not the first in my family to deal with this. I just feel emotions very intensely andĪlcohol sometimes helps that feel more manageable. I have a great husband and kids, wonderful friends, and a general positive self-image. Up a creek should I choose to relapse) but because I want to be myself and be Want the accountability (because, let’s face it, now that I’m telling you, I’m Posting memes from someecards about getting drunk. I don’t want you toįeel weird about having a drink around me or about talking about alcohol or Out of the water and was smiling and cheering, remembering how much fun it Going down” and pushed him (not HARD) down the slide. To shove him down while facing backward on his belly), and told him, “No, you’re I pulled him back up to turn him on his bottom (I’m not so mean Said, “No! No!!” and flipped onto his belly while he white-knuckled the sides Go,” and started to give him a firm but gentle push down the slide. I climbed the ladder, said “you’re going to By now, I’m sure I had the attention of other parents who I tried to reason with him from afar to encourage him to slide, but So on his third or fourth attempt, I pushed Him that it wasn’t really all that polite to keep going to the top while other I KNEW he could do it,Īnd besides, he had already gone so much the day before! I also wanted to teach That my son did this, I was starting to get frustrated. Gracious and patience, for which I was thankful. The other kids waiting in line were really Multiple times, he climbed to the top of the ladder, paused, sat,

On the second day, for whatever reason, he became afraid of It's therapy for me and hopefully a blessing to others. Music is medicine and has gotten me through such a tough year.

#CHILD STEPPING INTO THE WAVES FULL#

I didn't pick up a full career with the flute again like I thought maybe would happen. God brought it all full circle as I've learned new instruments and have had the amazing privilege of playing both in the band at church and in an offshoot, our band WKNDR. I'm not sure if it was a lack of maturity or what have you that kept it all in a contained place in my heart, but I hadn't yet arrived at the place music would have in my life in the long run.įast forward to the past year, in which we've had more than a few challenges with the kids and school and I decided in the midst of that that it would be a good idea to address a drinking problem that had gotten well beyond me. I played here and there in church, friend and family weddings, and other informal gatherings. The new path led me to Boston College, where I Bob an d some of the best friends a girl could find (oh yeah, and got a great education :)). Toward the end of high school, rather than go full-steam into a music career, I felt a strong calling to go elsewhere, so I trusted that God knew how much I hoped that wasn't the end. Most people who know me now don't even know that that was a part of my life, let alone most of it. I'm pretty much someone who lives in the moment, and I don't typically look back and think "what if?" But this has been the one topic I've thought about so many times over the years. I've been thinking lately about how I gave up a great path to a full career in music when I was heading into college and how I've wondered a million times what it would have been like had I pursued that.